If you've read my blog enough, you know how I am about "landmark moments." We had another one in the family this past weekend. We bought our daughter her first car. Nothing special, just a "92 Mazda hatchback (so she can cart her canvases around) with close to a 100,000 miles on it. Can't believe my baby now has her own car.
A friend of mine told me the other night she went to a meeting at her son's school. When she walked in, a large banner spanned the wall, stating "You have 18 months left with your child." Now she's someone who's constantly say things like this, so I was a bit surprised to hear how strongly this impacted her.
But it's so true. Time is running out. My daughter will be 18 this year. The days of my influence on her life are running short. Being a mother has turned out to be one the greatest challenges of my life. And I'll tell you, a lot of days I feel like I just can't do it right. Thank goodness God is on my side.
He's done amazing things in my girls lives, and I know He'll continue to do so. It's just hard to let go, you know? Sometimes I wish I could just have them back as toddlers just for a day. Just one day...
Yet each day brings new challenge and excitement as I watch them grow, grasp for their own independence, and morph more and more into the young ladies God is calling them to be. I long for the past, but I look forward to the future. It's an interesting place to be.